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Title: Full Circle
Fandom: Firefly
Characters: River
Prompt: #004 Circle of lights
Word Count: 244
Rating: T+
Summary: She sees patterns everywhere.
Notes: Written for

2x5obsessions.

She sees patterns everywhere. There are patterns in the tests they put her through and in the gentle tones of their voices. (She can hear the evil just by listening to the sound of their voices). She sees patterns in the marks left on her wrists from every time they’ve dragged her from her room to experiment on her.

The patterns are everywhere.

It is when she is in her room that she notices them the most. Being in her room means that she has come full circle. Being in her room means that the tests for the day, hour, minute, are complete and she is due a moment’s peace. It also means that the cycle is about to begin again, at any point in time, from the second she returned to the room. Full circle. Unending.

She often wonders why the walls of the room are square and not circular in that sense. Why not follow the metaphor the whole way through? Why not, why not, why not?

The mental abuse, the torment of worrying when next she will be taken, is worse than any physical ailment she’s know.

When will they come? What will they do to her? Will her thoughts be her own? She asks herself those questions every day, every time that she awakens and every minute that she has nothing else to wonder about.

She no longer wonders how long it will be until she gets to go home.