Fic: Lies & Complications (Inara)
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xfirefly9xTitle: Lies & Complications
Fandom: Firefly
Characters: Inara
Prompt: #007 Lies
Word Count: 360
Rating: G
Summary: It isn’t how a Companion is supposed to be.
Notes: Written for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
writers30days. 4/7/11.
I can’t stay here. I can’t deal with being here any longer with the bonds I’ve made, the friends I’ve found. It’s not right. It isn’t how a Companion is supposed to be.
Lies, more or less. She has to tell herself something though, to lessen the pain of leaving Serenity and her crew behind. That she is very much attached to each and every person aboard Serenity is something she knows will never be changed or altered or affected by her lying to herself, but even so, she tries and she tells herself things are very wrong for her and that she should leave.
Talking herself into leaving doesn’t make it any less difficult to put into action.
I can’t stay here and be the same person. A Companion’s life is one of luxuries and rich men and beauty and silk – not of cowboys and psychics and heists and gunfire.
To some level, she can’t see why both worlds should not join, but then she recalls life in the core planets and remembers. There are many reasons for her worlds to remain separate. For them to collide would be chaos. It couldn’t possibly work. And yet, for the past year or more, she has been dabbling into both worlds. It just hasn’t been the same. It hasn’t fit. And it never will.
It’s better for everyone.
Sometimes she thinks about how complicated things can be. (Rarely does anyone admit to thinking about the simple things, she has found.) It occurs to her, on those days, that she is one of the most complex creatures on Serenity. She has a double life – the life she lives as a Companion and her life on Serenity, when she pushes the Companion part of her to the side to make way for rougher activities, like helping out Kaylee in the engine room.
In the end, things would surely be easier for the crew if she wasn’t around. Right?
I want to leave.
She tells herself many things and wonders about even more. Sometimes she tells herself she doesn’t want to be on Serenity at all. That is her biggest and most painful lie.
fin.
Fandom: Firefly
Characters: Inara
Prompt: #007 Lies
Word Count: 360
Rating: G
Summary: It isn’t how a Companion is supposed to be.
Notes: Written for
writers30days. 4/7/11.I can’t stay here. I can’t deal with being here any longer with the bonds I’ve made, the friends I’ve found. It’s not right. It isn’t how a Companion is supposed to be.
Lies, more or less. She has to tell herself something though, to lessen the pain of leaving Serenity and her crew behind. That she is very much attached to each and every person aboard Serenity is something she knows will never be changed or altered or affected by her lying to herself, but even so, she tries and she tells herself things are very wrong for her and that she should leave.
Talking herself into leaving doesn’t make it any less difficult to put into action.
I can’t stay here and be the same person. A Companion’s life is one of luxuries and rich men and beauty and silk – not of cowboys and psychics and heists and gunfire.
To some level, she can’t see why both worlds should not join, but then she recalls life in the core planets and remembers. There are many reasons for her worlds to remain separate. For them to collide would be chaos. It couldn’t possibly work. And yet, for the past year or more, she has been dabbling into both worlds. It just hasn’t been the same. It hasn’t fit. And it never will.
It’s better for everyone.
Sometimes she thinks about how complicated things can be. (Rarely does anyone admit to thinking about the simple things, she has found.) It occurs to her, on those days, that she is one of the most complex creatures on Serenity. She has a double life – the life she lives as a Companion and her life on Serenity, when she pushes the Companion part of her to the side to make way for rougher activities, like helping out Kaylee in the engine room.
In the end, things would surely be easier for the crew if she wasn’t around. Right?
I want to leave.
She tells herself many things and wonders about even more. Sometimes she tells herself she doesn’t want to be on Serenity at all. That is her biggest and most painful lie.
fin.
