Fic: And So Goes The Cycle (Bella)
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xfirefly9xTitle: And So Goes The Cycle
Fandom: Twilight
Characters: Bella
Prompt: #019 Rage
Word Count: 240
Rating: G
Summary: She wants badly to lash out at something.
Warnings: Dark!fic. Suicidal themes.
Notes: Written for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
twilight20. 29/08/09.
She wants badly to lash out at something. Although for the majority of her time she prefers to fade into the background, there are moments when she craves attention (and usually she doesn’t get it outside of her family). The lack of attention eats at her until the rage builds up and bubbles to the surface.
She’ll spend a day or two then – sometimes three – going about with a scowl on her face and no kind words for anybody. It’s ironic really. When she most craves attention she pushes people away. When she burns for someone to talk to, no one is there and so goes the cycle.
It’s not a pleasant part of who she is. She hates when it surfaces. It is her though and it is what makes her fall over the edge in the end.
The sliver of a blade across flesh and the flow of blood send her pain first and then she is floating and cold and numb. The rage subsides to leave room for the experience and she stares at the ceiling as she feels herself slip away.
She prays for her saviour, for Edward to come and to turn her. She wants him to turn her. She wants to be the same as him. She wants to belong. Unconsciousness takes her first though and the last thing she knows is the gold of his eyes in her imagination. Her rage consumes her.
Fandom: Twilight
Characters: Bella
Prompt: #019 Rage
Word Count: 240
Rating: G
Summary: She wants badly to lash out at something.
Warnings: Dark!fic. Suicidal themes.
Notes: Written for
twilight20. 29/08/09. She wants badly to lash out at something. Although for the majority of her time she prefers to fade into the background, there are moments when she craves attention (and usually she doesn’t get it outside of her family). The lack of attention eats at her until the rage builds up and bubbles to the surface.
She’ll spend a day or two then – sometimes three – going about with a scowl on her face and no kind words for anybody. It’s ironic really. When she most craves attention she pushes people away. When she burns for someone to talk to, no one is there and so goes the cycle.
It’s not a pleasant part of who she is. She hates when it surfaces. It is her though and it is what makes her fall over the edge in the end.
The sliver of a blade across flesh and the flow of blood send her pain first and then she is floating and cold and numb. The rage subsides to leave room for the experience and she stares at the ceiling as she feels herself slip away.
She prays for her saviour, for Edward to come and to turn her. She wants him to turn her. She wants to be the same as him. She wants to belong. Unconsciousness takes her first though and the last thing she knows is the gold of his eyes in her imagination. Her rage consumes her.
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Date: 2009-11-23 01:38 pm (UTC)Have you seen New Moon yet?
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Date: 2009-11-23 01:39 pm (UTC)Nope. I've seen Twilight once in cinemas, twice or three times on DVD and read the book for Twilight. Haven't seen/read anything other than that yet.
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Date: 2009-11-23 02:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-11-23 02:20 pm (UTC)