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xfirefly9xTitle: Conflicted Contradictions
Fandom: Castle
Characters: Rick/Kate
Prompt: #006 Gloomy
Word Count: 264
Rating: G
Summary: She doesn’t know what to feel.
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10_prompts. 27/08/09. Tag to season 1 final.
The night after Rick tells her about her mother she doesn’t know what to feel. Perhaps as a result of that she goes through a myriad of emotions. She’s furious at him for going behind her back when she asked him specifically not to. She’s glad he did and feels betrayed that he did and she is hopeful about what he found out.
She is worried about what this turn in events might mean for her both personally and professionally. She doesn’t want to sink back into the depression she was in years ago when ‘it’ happened. She doesn’t want to remember that pain – it’s already beginning to creep back in – but she does want it at the same time, which scares her.
She wants it because she misses her mother and she wants it because if he’s right, if the annoying, too charming for his own good man is right, she may finally get some closure.
Still, it’s a matter of principle in the end. He betrayed her. He went behind her back to dig up the skeletons of her past and to metaphorically rub her nose in them. Even if he did have good intentions is that something friends do? Why does it pain her so?
And why does she want to call him up or see him and beat the rest of what he discovered out of him? Why, why, why?
She doesn’t bother with dinner, choosing instead to lie in the darkness of her room and stare up at the ceiling while the gloomy feeling sinks deeper under her skin.
Fandom: Castle
Characters: Rick/Kate
Prompt: #006 Gloomy
Word Count: 264
Rating: G
Summary: She doesn’t know what to feel.
Notes: Written for
10_prompts. 27/08/09. Tag to season 1 final.The night after Rick tells her about her mother she doesn’t know what to feel. Perhaps as a result of that she goes through a myriad of emotions. She’s furious at him for going behind her back when she asked him specifically not to. She’s glad he did and feels betrayed that he did and she is hopeful about what he found out.
She is worried about what this turn in events might mean for her both personally and professionally. She doesn’t want to sink back into the depression she was in years ago when ‘it’ happened. She doesn’t want to remember that pain – it’s already beginning to creep back in – but she does want it at the same time, which scares her.
She wants it because she misses her mother and she wants it because if he’s right, if the annoying, too charming for his own good man is right, she may finally get some closure.
Still, it’s a matter of principle in the end. He betrayed her. He went behind her back to dig up the skeletons of her past and to metaphorically rub her nose in them. Even if he did have good intentions is that something friends do? Why does it pain her so?
And why does she want to call him up or see him and beat the rest of what he discovered out of him? Why, why, why?
She doesn’t bother with dinner, choosing instead to lie in the darkness of her room and stare up at the ceiling while the gloomy feeling sinks deeper under her skin.
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Date: 2010-01-22 11:50 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2010-01-22 08:59 pm (UTC)It's one of those fics of yours that makes me say ouch. In the good way, if that makes any sense at all...
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Date: 2010-01-23 03:12 pm (UTC)I know exactly what you mean. :)
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