Fic: Drowned In Remorse (Mal/Inara)

[xfirefly9x]

Title: Drowned In Remorse
Fandom: Firefly
Characters: Mal/Inara
Prompt: #008 ARTICLES; NEWSPAPERS ~ broken promise
Word Count: 229
Rating: T+
Summary: He's surfing the cortex in search of possibilities for more work when he sees it.
Notes: Written for 30_angsts. 13/09/08.

"Feel the emptiness in my heart
Life's taken me back to the start
There's no power, no glory
I'm just missing you"
~ "My One Mistake" by Rex Goudie

He's surfing the cortex in search of possibilities for more work when he sees it. It's an article, the same as any other article, but its topic makes his heart tremble. Companions. It's all about Companions.

On closer inspection, it identifies the differences between Companions and whores. Companions are registered with the Guild; whores are not. Companions are highly regarded in society, whereas whores are looked down upon. He can't see much difference in what they actually do, pleasuring men-folk and the occasional woman, but a wave of remorse drowns him anyway.

He is flooded with guilt.

For so long, he had called Inara a whore. To her face. Of course he respected her. He just didn't like the idea of her in bed with who knew how many other men. He didn't like the idea of sharing her body like that.

He couldn't help but consider that his aversion to her job may be nothing but personal to her. Maybe instead of telling her he disapproved of her work and wished she had another job, any job, he was pushing her further and further away.

He quickly typed a message to her before anything could change his mind. He clicked send. Sitting back in his seat, he stared at the screen, at the letters there, so very confronting and yet so very vague. Hopefully she'd understand.

"I'm sorry."

Comments

[ncb1.livejournal.com]

So Mal.

[xfirefly9x.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[beascarpetta.livejournal.com]

He quickly typed a message to her before anything could change his mind.

Loved it because it mirrors his being torn about her.(I'd kill to find out if they ever thought of bringing them together in a Second Season)

[xfirefly9x.livejournal.com]

Thank you! (I'd love to know that too! But then I'm also almost glad they never got together. They surely would have been Joss'd.)

[beascarpetta.livejournal.com]

I know and you're probably right.Still,their incredible chemistry made me wish we'd been given one single scene.On second thoughts ,it's probably best to relegate certain things entirely to people's imagination.(*pulling out hair because of scenes we might have had*)

[xfirefly9x.livejournal.com]

Mm yeah. I'm very torn on the matter. Would those few scenes have been worth them getting Joss'd? Maybe. But maybe not. *whimpers* Gawd I miss them! And Firefly! *clings* Wish we'd seen them in an established relationship. That would have been all kindsa interesting.

[beascarpetta.livejournal.com]

I was like "OMG,go get her,man!" when he was looking at her,practically devouring her with his eyes several times during each episode , especially when they both ended up at that ball(I can't remember the title of that episode) where she went as a companion. It must have been quite a challenge for the writers to keep up that high level of tension by small gestures alone.
I was really wondering whether there wasn't some kind of very hush-hush relationship going on at the time because that rapport they seemed to have was outstanding,don't you think?

[xfirefly9x.livejournal.com]

Too bad they both hated complications. One of them may have risked it then. Though I think a few times they were close to risking it. Hush-hush relationship going on? No. Not in any established, behind the scenes sense. I think what they have is all out in the opens.. except for the admitting it to themselves part. If that makes sense. Epic ship, Mal/Inara is. I'm yet to come across a ship so brilliant and twisted and angsty and adorable. I definitely am impressed by the writers.

Oh. And that episode is "Shindig". Ep 4. ;)

[beascarpetta.livejournal.com]

Thanks for reminding me."Shindig" it is.You are right;there is one more angsty and twisted relationship I can think of , which also has some of the elements , which is the Michael/Nikita un-relationship,although Mal/Inara,at least to my mind is far more positive.

[xfirefly9x.livejournal.com]

Michael/Nikita. Don't know them.. Which fandom?

[beascarpetta.livejournal.com]

La femme Nikita (which was really popular in the United States).Canadian/US television spy drama based on the original French film by Luc Besson.Ran from January 1997 for five seasons until March 2001.

[xfirefly9x.livejournal.com]

Oh cool! I've heard of that show, not seen any of it yet though. Later with that.

On another note, bye for now! 2:30am.. washing is done, rain and all. *facepalm* And I should go sleep.

[beascarpetta.livejournal.com]

Sleep tight.Washing almost done.still have to cram for tomorrow.(*headdesk*)