Fic: Recollections (River)
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xfirefly9xTitle: Recollections
Fandom: Firefly
Characters: River
Prompt: #01. “No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention."- Chuck Palahniuk
Word Count: 199
Rating: G
Summary: River sometimes thinks back on her first days at the Academy
Notes: Written for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
writers30days. 7/4/10.
River sometimes thinks back on her first days at the Academy. They are recollections mostly, some of them fuzzy, some not all there, and some with added bits that didn’t happen. She sifts through them, wanders about in the stories her mind tells her, wonders at their magnificence and at the lies and untruths.
How much of it is real? She doesn’t know. She can determine the origin of some, but there are others that fade between reality and a dream and something else she can’t quite understand or quantify. Thread as thin as silk connecting them. It’s like the memories were implanted. Forced upon her. Sewed beneath her skin. Not hers. She wasn’t paying enough attention and got crushed.
But then she remembers, that’s not possible. Not anymore. The thoughts have to be hers, or else she is a freak, a moonbrain, a science project. A reader. The technology to implant memories was lost long ago, she is certain. Unsure. Curious about. Does it still exist?
The Alliance ruined her. She’s trying to heal and Simon is trying to help her heal, but they are failing. There are too many pieces, not all hers, to put back together.
Fandom: Firefly
Characters: River
Prompt: #01. “No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention."- Chuck Palahniuk
Word Count: 199
Rating: G
Summary: River sometimes thinks back on her first days at the Academy
Notes: Written for
writers30days. 7/4/10.River sometimes thinks back on her first days at the Academy. They are recollections mostly, some of them fuzzy, some not all there, and some with added bits that didn’t happen. She sifts through them, wanders about in the stories her mind tells her, wonders at their magnificence and at the lies and untruths.
How much of it is real? She doesn’t know. She can determine the origin of some, but there are others that fade between reality and a dream and something else she can’t quite understand or quantify. Thread as thin as silk connecting them. It’s like the memories were implanted. Forced upon her. Sewed beneath her skin. Not hers. She wasn’t paying enough attention and got crushed.
But then she remembers, that’s not possible. Not anymore. The thoughts have to be hers, or else she is a freak, a moonbrain, a science project. A reader. The technology to implant memories was lost long ago, she is certain. Unsure. Curious about. Does it still exist?
The Alliance ruined her. She’s trying to heal and Simon is trying to help her heal, but they are failing. There are too many pieces, not all hers, to put back together.
