xfirefly9x

I think I'm becoming a workaholic. I've spent the majority of the past three days working on uni assignments and readings and internship stuff, and sending emails about all of the above to relevant people. I've worked til my back aches more than usual and I've worked on sleep and without sleep. I'm so stressed out about everything related to uni and internship stuff right now. And the thing is, no matter how much I do, it doesn't feel like it's doing anything to my workload (even if it is). I just.. argh. I need a day off. I need to sit back and relax for at least half a day and spend the time doing something else. Anything else.

Continuing on that topic (kind of), today sucked. As in, totally entirely sucked. My day:

( huge rant )

So tired and heavy limbs and I have a massive headache.

...I think those sleeping pills may have worked. Which, yay, but I expect to be in some pain with headaches for awhile, probs til I'm caught up with sleep. :/

Also: Removed a few people. Let me know if you want to be added back.

Very nearly got off the bus tonight at the hospital instead of home. That's how bad this insomnia has gotten.. and this newish cold/sore throat. Having a slight crying session right now, going to take some panadol soon and then hopefully get some sleep (or rest, at least). Depending on how I feel tomorrow, I might still go by the hospital. Have to see.

No sleep. Again. Two nights in a row. Probably the fifth night without sleep this week. Close to that anyway.

I'm actually aching all over. My body hurts. My head hurts. Slightest headache sitting at the front of my skull. My eyes are blurry. My emotions are screwed up (not enough for complete mental breakdown though, or even just some tears - at least so far).

I just want to go to bed for once and not get up hours later having had no sleep at all. Is that really so much to ask?

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Same-ish topic but kind of not.. I mentioned on facebook that I've been shivering from the cold and yet sweating a bit at the same time. It's been happening a fair few nights. It was pointed out to me that those are symptoms of a fever. I'll be asking the doctor about that (and hoping that if I am sick and there's a cure, it'll also get rid of the sleep deprivation).

Maybe it's one of those glandular fever type ones, though I doubt it'd be that one as I think when you have that, you can't get enough sleep rather than can't get to sleep.

+ I'm feeling a lot better about things and so am returning to the land of LJ. In saying that I still have 5 assignments to finish in the next 2 weeks so my LJ time will still be limited for awhile and most posts will likely be uni rants and procrastinating.

+ Didn't sleep at all last night. And now? I don't want to sleep. Not yet. I've given myself this afternoon off but have to get back into things tomorrow so the sooner I go to sleep, the sooner I have to wake up and get into assignmenhts again.. Meh. I will get sleep soon. Really need it.

+ Castle and House MD finales? OMG!epic! House had me in tears through most of it and giddy for a certain scene which I keep rewatching and Castle.. at the end there? Ouch! So very awesome, both of them! ♥

+ This song ("My One Mistake" by Rex Goudie) reminds me of Tony/Kate. Pretty sure I saw a vid with them to it awhile back. I miss those two. Anyone got any fic for them to rec?

+ Writing has been going slowly again. Still every night though, so that's all that matters. The lecture today for my Novel & Memoir class has inspired me to look around and try to submit some more of my writing to be published when the holidays come around. Short stories, maybe some more poetry. Hopefully it goes well. I'll also be looking for writing competitions and such. If you know any good ones I'd really appreciate links. ;)

+ Shows of the moment: House MD, Castle, Lie To Me, Leverage, Firefly, Miss Match and Dawsons Creek. What're yours?